Monday, February 11, 2013

Freak Out!

(Before I get down to it, give yourself some bonus points if you now have a certain song by Chic stuck in your head!)

So.

Something funny happened this weekend. Well, maybe not funny so much as strange and stupid, but still, something odd happened this weekend.

I had a complete and total freak out.

About my book, of course, because what else would I freak out about?

Hmmm. When I put it that way, maybe it's not so odd.

Anyway, I also have to laugh at my use of 'had' just then, like it's in the past. Like I'm not still in the midst of a meltdown when I very much am. It's adorable how I say 'had' like I haven't gone off the deep end, or off the reservation or any other of those euphemisms for lost her freaking mind.

Which I seem to have done.

But maybe it's not a total freak out. There is, after all, somewhere inside me, one small part that realizes that perhaps this is a phase that shall pass. This is the part of me that has prevented Crazy M.J. (not to be affiliated with Not Crazy M.J. or Not As Crazy M.J.) from going through with my her plan of strapping some sort of explosive to the manuscript in question and blowing it to smithereens.

There's also the fact that I have no access whatsoever to any sort of explosives. Just don't tell Crazy M.J. that; she likes to think she has options, and it will do no one any good for her to find out otherwise.

So it's not a total freak out. It's just a...near total freak out.

And it will go away. Eventually. It will run its course like a really inconvenient flu and then disappear into the ether, and I will be back to normal.

Or, whatever passes for normal around here.

So,in the interest of Keeping Calm and Carrying On, these are my goals for the week (see if you can spot this week's theme!):

1. Finish your latest round of edits, and do not (at any point) attach any sort of incendiary device or accelerant to the manuscript. (note to self: check highlighters for flammable material warnings...)

2. Work out at least three times this week. See if you can't sweat some of this crazy out. (note to self: shoveling snow does not count)

3. STOP FREAKING OUT. You're doing it for no reason, and it's twisting your stomach into knots and making you not want to eat chocolate, which really doesn't help with the whole not-acting-crazy thing. So cut it out already.

One last thing before I go back to being crazy, I don't know why the Weather Channel is doing this (maybe just to have something to helpp differentiate between them?), but they're naming the winter storms this year. Nemo, you know, is the storm that just dumped record amounts of snow over parts of New England (not in my particular part of New England. Funny to think that the foot and a half of snow we received was on the low end), but I just learned that the latest storm is called Orko. And that just delights the geek in me oh so much.


Happy Monday, all.

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  1. I like it when you get geeks in the top positions of certain organisations so that when it comes to giving something a name you can guarantee it'll be something awesome.

    Good luck sweating out the crazy too. Stay away from anything flammable until the urge to purge the MS has gone completely!

    Jamie @ Mithril Wisdom

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    1. It's a good thing I didn't have to light any candles during the blizzard this weekend. I might have been writing a very different post today...

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  2. You just need someone to slap it out of you. That always works in movies.

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    1. I have a certain scene from Airplane! in my head right now. Anyone else?

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    2. Get back to your seat - I'll take care of this.

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  3. One of my favorite Hello Kitty socks just ripped wide open with a hole. I am freaking out about that. =P

    Also, my toe is cold.

    Good luck with your goals this week. I have total faith in you. I do not, however, have any faith anymore in whoever made these socks.

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    1. I had some Slytherin socks (I'm not sure what my family's trying to tell me...) that developed a hole in the toe. I was pretty bummed that day because they were awesome socks.

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  4. You've got to have the odd freak out. It's proof you are a writer!

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    1. You mean... I'm normal? In that case, I'm not sure if I should feel better about myself or bad for us all...

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  5. Shoveling snow definitely does count!

    Plus, it's the middle of the winter in New Hampshire - you have the right to freak out. Just get to some chocolate, stat!

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    1. I have plenty of chocolate in the house. I just don't want to eat any of it. Stupid freak out. I love chocolate.

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  6. Don't freak out. I don't freak out so much as just go into a shell... then I snap at everyone about stupid things cause I'm so pissed off about my book. I realize that won't change until I do something about it.... then I freak out because I've got to do something about my book. That circle can be an ugly one.

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    1. That sounds familiar. I mean... I've never done anything like that ever. *whistles and refuses to make eye contact with anyone*

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  7. For what it's worth, I think shoveling snow should count as working out. :)

    And I think freaking out is actually a normal part of the writing process. Isn't it?

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    1. I don't think anyone has ever thought something I do is normal. It's more "Hey, isn't there a giant butterfly net with your name on it somewhere?"

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  8. Relax! It will be all right. Next week won't be so freaky. And yes, I get bonus points. Thanks a lot.

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    1. Sorry about the song, Alex. Would you like some extra bonus points?

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  9. Yes, bonus points to you for inserting that earworm into my brain. I shall be singing Freak Out all morning. Thanks for that. : /

    And stop stressing over the ms. It's a great story. All it needs is a comma transfusion. :P

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    1. You're welcome. Next time, I shall try to pick an even more annoying song...

      And yeah, the comma thing is stressing me out. It's bad. Really bad. Really, really bad, and there's no way I'll be moving past that any time soon.

      Fortunately (unfortunately?), that's only the tip of a very crazy iceberg.

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    2. Email me about your comma issues.

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  10. Breathe deep....and...exhale. There you go..all better now, right? :)

    Yes, I've just noticed the 'naming of winter storms' which I find, mildly, annoying. The fact that they've named the next one "Orko", though, soothes that annoyance....just a bit. :)

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    1. I think it annoys the National Weather Service too. I think they released a statement about how they do not name their winter storms and that's just a Weather Channel thing. They probably said it better though.

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  11. Naming snow storms is a new one. I guess we get to many this way for it to be considered. I might have to start doing so though, then it will sound like I'm talking in code and I can freak everyone out.

    Being an Author means being crazy, but aye, chocolate usually doesn't help with that part.

    Good goals, though are you SURE shoveling snow doesn't count as excersize?

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    1. When you're a chocolate addict, it helps. It's like having a caffeine addiction. If you don't have caffeine one day, you get crazy headaches.

      And I don't count shoveling snow as a work out. Maybe if Nemo had dumped 40 inches on my house, I'd feel differently, but as it currently stands, it's not a work out.

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  12. Maybe you need to take a week off the edits. Some time away might give you some perspective. Perhaps start a new story, something to get your frustrations out (like a day at The Store where you let everyone get what they deserve).

    And I thought shoveling snow was hard work. Why wouldn't that count as a workout? (I wouldn't know, so please enlighten me.)

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    1. I think the snow shoveling thing really depends on the amount and type of snowfall. For example, in this last storm, my particular area of New England received roughly 18" of snow, and it was rather powder-y, so it wasn't that heavy or hard to move. The wind was more of a challenge than the shoveling. 40" of a heavier snow would be a much different story. But I didn't get that snow, so it doesn't count as a work out.

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  13. I admire the fact that you can freak out and then write about it. When I freak out, I'm not in a frame of mind where I can write about it (because I'm freaking out).

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    1. Yeah...you should've seen the first draft of this post. It was so insane that even Crazy M.J. said "Whoa. Maybe we should step back for a moment here."

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  14. Ohhhh... freak outs are good for us sometimes! We need that emotional release! (Though I do try to schedule my breakdowns so I don't scare anyone) But I love how honest you are. And I love your goals. Embrace the freak out and push forward! Loved the post. :D

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    1. I love the idea of scheduling breakdowns so as to not scare anyone, and I'm sure every person in my life would appreciate it if I gave that a try.

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  15. Ride that freak out to the exit gate of Crazyville. Then you can leave on a high note as the Big Kahuna of Crazyville. Songs will be written about your exploits. They may even create a commemorative stamp.

    It's always best to leave with a bang. That way the other citizens of Crazyville will think twice before messing with you. (Same principle works with prison and other such delightful places/groups.)

    As always, my advice is free. What a bargain!

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    1. I'm holding out for a commemorative coin...

      I always love it when you come to call, Ava. You never fail to make me laugh.

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  16. It's pretty darn easy to freak out. Best of luck with everything!

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  17. *says in echo-y He-Man voice* You Have The Powerrrrrr - not to freak out anymore. (:

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    1. I do? Where did I put it? Hmmm. Maybe I left it in my other pants... =)

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  18. Get rid of those darn incendiary devices because we all have our freakout moments. If we kept blowing them up, no one would write any books ever except the really, really dense. And I think shoveling snow should count...my legs are killing me!

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    1. I'm pretty sure your area received about twice as much snow as mine did, so in that case, I probably would consider it a work out. =)

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  19. adorable! (sounded like vector from despicable me, ha!)

    vector would be a good storm name! i guess the weather people need to keep their storms straight right?

    hey! you could name your freak outs! that might help calm the crazy. dont make me name, thee!

    on second thought, i might be sounding a little crazy there myself...

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    1. I could name my freak outs. This is the first one of the year, so this one should be Freak Out ABBA, named after my favorite Swedish pop group.

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  20. It's okay to freak out. And the Weather Channel storm names crack me up.

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    1. Didn't they have a Gandalf storm earlier this season? I wonder how one gets that job. Because I want it.

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  21. Nope, no song. Don't tell me!

    I think shoveling snow should count. It's lifting heavy things, innit? It's cardio, innit? It's out in the fresh air, innit? Sounds like a workout.

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    1. Fine. You have worn me down. I will count snow shoveling. But only under protest, and I'll only give myself partial credit for doing it at all... =)

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    2. I never want to do it, so it must be a workout :P

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  22. Yup, totally got that song in my head my first thing. My suggestion, use the explosives on the snow pack, not your work :) These winter storm names have been giving me giggling fits all season. We got hit by Gandalf down here. It's hard to be sour about the nasty weather when it carries such great names.

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    1. I knew there was a Gandalf. I don't remember if Gandalf made it up here, but I know I'm going to be disappointed if Orko doesn't put in an appearance.

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  23. You're soooo funny. Happy Tuesday since I'm behind as ususal in getting to read blogs.

    Hugs and chocolate,
    Shelly

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    1. I'm never not behind in reading blogs. Thanks for making the time, Shelly.

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  24. Bell, thanks! I knew it was something simple - but for some reason I can never remember it.

    The quote was from the one where Shawn and Gus help out in the Civil War re-enactment.

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    1. You know, I thought it might have been the Civil War re-enactment episode. I need to have more faith in myself, I guess.

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  25. Yay I love Orko! lol Remember looking for his hiding spot during the show??
    I think you're right on target with working out to sweat the madness from your system. Time away fixes everything!

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    1. I do remember looking for his hiding spot. Ah, those were the good ole days, weren't they?

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  26. Just one step at a time, like when Chandler was getting married in Friends :-)

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    1. I think I might be down to baby steps at this point, but as long as they're baby steps in the right direction, I'll get there eventually.

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  27. Deep breath. In and out. And it's okay to freak out about getting a manuscript ready to publish. It's a big deal, but it'll go better than you think it will. :)

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    1. Well, it certainly couldn't be worse. Except it probably could. OH NO! I'm starting to freak out again! Still? =)

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  28. They named one Khan. You can imagine how that pleased the Trekkies and how many pictures of Kirk suddenly appeared on Facebook.

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    1. That's right. I'd forgotten about Khan. I've never been a huge Star Trek fan. I was very disappointed by Plato. Here's hoping they do better with Q.

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  29. I know you can get through this. Good luck with your goals!

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