Something funny happened this weekend. Well, maybe not funny so much as strange and stupid, but still, something odd happened this weekend.
I had a complete and total freak out.
About my book, of course, because what else would I freak out about?
Hmmm. When I put it that way, maybe it's not so odd.
Anyway, I also have to laugh at my use of 'had' just then, like it's in the past. Like I'm not still in the midst of a meltdown when I very much am. It's adorable how I say 'had' like I haven't gone off the deep end, or off the reservation or any other of those euphemisms for lost her freaking mind.
Which I seem to have done.
But maybe it's not a total freak out. There is, after all, somewhere inside me, one small part that realizes that perhaps this is a phase that shall pass. This is the part of me that has prevented Crazy M.J. (not to be affiliated with Not Crazy M.J. or Not As Crazy M.J.) from going through with
There's also the fact that I have no access whatsoever to any sort of explosives. Just don't tell Crazy M.J. that; she likes to think she has options, and it will do no one any good for her to find out otherwise.
So it's not a total freak out. It's just a...near total freak out.
And it will go away. Eventually. It will run its course like a really inconvenient flu and then disappear into the ether, and I will be back to normal.
Or, whatever passes for normal around here.
So,in the interest of Keeping Calm and Carrying On, these are my goals for the week (see if you can spot this week's theme!):
1. Finish your latest round of edits, and do not (at any point) attach any sort of incendiary device or accelerant to the manuscript. (note to self: check highlighters for flammable material warnings...)
2. Work out at least three times this week. See if you can't sweat some of this crazy out. (note to self: shoveling snow does not count)
3. STOP FREAKING OUT. You're doing it for no reason, and it's twisting your stomach into knots and making you not want to eat chocolate, which really doesn't help with the whole not-acting-crazy thing. So cut it out already.
One last thing before I go back to being crazy, I don't know why the Weather Channel is doing this (maybe just to have something to helpp differentiate between them?), but they're naming the winter storms this year. Nemo, you know, is the storm that just dumped record amounts of snow over parts of New England (not in my particular part of New England. Funny to think that the foot and a half of snow we received was on the low end), but I just learned that the latest storm is called Orko. And that just delights the geek in me oh so much.