It's the first Wednesday of the month so it's time, once again, for Alex J. Cavanaugh's Insecure Writer's Support Group (please click on the link for a complete list of participants).
Hi everyone. My name's MJ and I'm insecure. To say the least.
Last month, I talked about my endeavor to self publish my book, Effigy. Shortly thereafter, I blogged about how great everything was going. Shortly after that, I blogged about how I totally jinxed myself because I'd started to fall behind.
And now today I'm blogging about how everything has completely stalled.
I really should have seen that coming. Don't know why I ever thought it wouldn't.
I had what I am calling a 'crisis of confidence' last week. As I said via Twitter, I had one of those days (weeks) where I couldn't remember why I ever thought I could or should write and/or publish a novel.
Everything I tried to write was crap. Every revision I made was stupid. I was stupid because why didn't I not make this mistake or that mistake the first time through. Why was I bothering with any of it?
Really negative stuff. Not good.
I've had these 'dark periods' before (though usually not quite so negative). They come, they go. They're never much fun but eventually they go away. Eventually I get back on track. But this particular one worries the living hell out of me.
What if it doesn't go away? What if I stay lost in the doldrums forever?
So today's question is what do you do when/if a crisis of confidence sneaks up on you? How do you get your groove back?
Gotta run...the day job's calling my name. I wish it would stop.